January is all about new beginnings and resolving to be better.  While I have been trying to play catch up with blogging, I wanted to take a moment to reflect and talk about self growth.  Several months back I wrote about how I was in a rebuilding phase of my life.  Since I wrote that post I have been living life to fullest and enjoying every moment of it; while I have changed, it has been for the best.  I have discovered new things about myself and gotten back in touch with things I enjoy.  

When Mason came out as gay, part of me did not know what do, I became numb, because so much of my life was focused and centered on him.  I started focusing on myself, for the first time in a long time, for someone who is selfless; this was a great challenge and was hard.  I focused on my health and fell back in love with running.  I learned how to make new friends and seize every moment.  Professionally, I began focusing on new career goals and took a serious look where I was and where I wanted to be.  I continued to focus on the things I enjoy – photography, cooking, traveling, family and friends. 

As I have been focusing on becoming my best self, I learned that loving yourself is a must.  I also learned that it is okay to take time for you.  In the end no one else is going to take care of you but you and sometimes this is a hard lesson to learn.  

Time is my biggest nemesis today.   There are so many things I want to accomplish, do and experience.  I know I will do, accomplish and experience all of these in time. While each days brings a new challenge,  I love my life and would not have it any other way.

So where am I at?  Professionally, I am growing.  I am doing what I love. I am learning to balance a demanding career and professional life with an equally demanding yet fulfilling personal life.  From a personal perspective, I am doing what I love and surrounding myself with positive people. 

So what is my best self… I think it is a girl who is striving and pushing for the best in life and not giving up on what she really wants.   It living my life to fullest and being happy and not letting the negative get in the way.