Later today is my kidney surgery.   I cannot say I am really nervous. I think I am more anticipating the outcomes… Will they be able to get the stones out? How much scar tissue will they find? Will I be facing more surgeries?   Then there is anticipation over how I will feel afterward… How much pain will I be in? How will the stint feel? Will I get an infection?

I have been through this surgery so many times it is almost routine.   However I think what makes the surgery hard for me is that I know everything that will happen and can happen.   I know what the pain will feel like afterwards. I know how the stint will feel. I know it will be painful to go to the bathroom afterwards.

Overall I just want to get this over. I am trying to think positive thoughts. I am telling myself after this I will be able to return to normal life. After I recover from surgery I should be able to return to gym and I should begin to get my energy back. I might even lose some water weight.

So here’s to a good surgery.