I have a lot of things going in my life right now and sometimes I find it hard to have the correct balance of things. For example, today I need to do things around the house, go to the gym, do the grocery shopping, make sure laundry is done, work on the book, and make sure things everything is ready for the coming week.  Just thinking about how I am accomplish everything makes me exhausted. 

I try to take it all day by day and work my hardest to fit it all in and still have a happy medium with social life and relaxing.  I sometimes try to fit too much in and beat myself up over it.  I cannot lie fitting it all in for me is a very hard task.  I work around 60 to 70 hours a week, I try to spend time Allyn and my parents, I have friends that I try to see when possible, I am trying to write a book, I do try to keep myself up every now and then, I try to cook and clean as much as possible around the house and sometimes it’s just a lot to deal with.  

 Running (the gym) is fun, it brings me happiness and allows me to clear my mind and it keeps me healthy. 

The book, to me has become a long-term project, that I need to find away to wrap. I honestly do not feel it is researched and written well enough but publisher wants it.  I am having a hard time putting my name on something that is not 100%.   I try to work on it after work or on the weekends but sometimes I am just drained and I have the feeling if I have to look or explain one more historical fact I am going to shot myself. 

I just want a well balance life; one that includes family and friends, simulating projects and fun projects.   I do not want to be considered a workaholic but I want to be considered the top in my field.  

I think the thing I have remember through it all is taking time for yourself is not a bad thing because in the end you are only going to have you.